Shower = Productivity
last updated 12//31//25
maybe someone told me directly or perhaps it was some advice from a past therapist
12//15//25
it doesn't really matter from where i heard it, but the idea is that washing off the day means you did something productive
// as if you can just wash the feeling away //
12//20//25
which never made any sense. on the one hand being clean could be the last thing on my mind
// in the puritan sense that is //
12//21//25
those were showers that i wished never ran out of hot water, i couldn't be bothered to think about productivity
// "even on christmas thou's sense of productivity shall be maintained" John 69:420 //
12//25//25
and then on the other hand, on days where i felt as if my physical body was scattered across the planet
// all i could do is count the minutes till i had to brave the cold again //
12//27//25
unless i confront myself with a sense of constructiveness, i can't feel the empty self discussions to find any conclusions
// maybe those versions are what should be washed, or rather, pissed down the drain //
12//31//25
